The Next Move

I'm afraid.
I'm afraid of how my conscience would affect my decisions.
I'm afraid of how my actions would determine my consequences.

This is the equivalent of me being in a battlefield - on a chessboard.

It's the equivalent of the ever classic Kasparov vs Muratkuliev 1973 battle, where the next move, Qg5 Qxg5, ultimately determined the fates of the dark side... When 2 beauties collided, when the intensity of battleship between two kingdoms collide, and the ultimate stake at hand - The King's Head. Power. Glory. Money.

And that the seven ultimate sins of the world; finally brought the dark side to its very own downfall...

Yeah.

I'm kinda going through something like that now.

Or the lack of it.

Fine. Not so drama.

But I'm afraid. A lot is at stake. And there is a price to pay. RM24k to be exact.

So....What should my next move be?

I Need A Break...

Seriously.

I need a break.

Achtung Baby!

Stressed Out.
Emotional High, and low.
Disgusting Tops, and Bottoms.
Directionless.
Tard boring.
Inspirationless.
Mind boggling.
Deprived of variety.
Trying too much and achieving none.
Indiscriminate.
Black,Black,Black,Black.

I need a new wardrobe. *Winkadoo...*

Directionless..

Disclaimer: Code language ensues...

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ALL HAIL COLDPLAY

Courtesy of these websites (more like plagiarized).

Awesome pics from the Wembley Stadium of their latest tour.

And it does constantly hit me that Coldplay was in fact in Singapore not too long ago *smack*

Goodness I wanna go to a rock concert. Like now.

Zzzzz. Goodnight peeps

And One Year Later

It boils down to this.

That I am thankful for the support, comfort and blessings that have come by my way, in ways God has revealed so beautifully, within this one single year.

That I am thankful for the plans that God himself has unraveled for me, His paths that He has directed me in (and make me walk in, although, being the mule I am, I do tend to wanna take the short cut, but let's leave the narcissism for another time, shall we?) and leading me front line toward the goals, the dreams, the very person God has set me to be the person He wants me to be.

"And it shall come to pass in the last days, says God, That I will pour out of My Spirit on all flesh; Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, Your young men shall see visions, Your old men shall dream dreams." - Acts 2:17

And yes, even though He's still working inside of me (and we could all use some help here), I can say to myself, that I have indeed moved on.

*Gives self a pat on the back* Hehehehe.

And now it's time to REALLY clear the clutters in my room. Arrrggghhh.

Farnie "Christian" Jokes

So here are some "jokes" I found online.

This one's about the Hymns for All Occupations.

Dentist's Hymn.................Crown Him with Many Crowns
Weatherman's Hymn........There Shall Be Showers of Blessings
Contractor's Hymn...........The Church's One Foundation
The Tailor's Hymn..........................Holy, Holy, Holy
The Golfer's Hymn.............There's a Green Hill Far Away
The Politician's Hymn....................Standing on the Promises
Optometrist's Hymn...........Open My Eyes That I Might See
The IRS Agent's Hymn....................I Surrender All
The Gossip's Hymn.........................Pass It On
The Electrician's Hymn...................Send The Light
The Shopper's Hymn.......................Sweet Bye and Bye
The Realtor's Hymn.............I've Got a Mansion Just over the Hilltop
The Massage Therapists Hymn.......He Touched Me
The Doctor's Hymn............................The Great Physician

Sunday School Children's Hymn ... Tell Me the Stories of Jesus


AND for those who speed on the highway - a few hymns:

45mph...................God Will Take Care of You
65mph...................Nearer My God To Thee
85mph...................This World Is Not My Home
95mph....................Lord, I'm Coming Home
100mph..................Precious Memories

Yeah. Those were the days...

Amazing Poem

The Fun Theory

Can we get more people to do the things they don't do by making it fun to do?





So is MPPP like going to consider these anytime soon?

An Open Letter to Me

If all it takes is simply an exchange of words, to break a person's heart, or put a person down, emotionally, mentally and spiritually...

Then it only goes to show, that we are only human. Fragile and vulnerable in the eyes of the Almighty.

Strong in our physical built up of our bodies, yet so weak from the inside of our hearts.

Wonderfully created in the eyes of God, yet flawed from the perfected standard of God.

Everyday I learn to balance between the two abstract elements. And finding my own strength, learning my weakness, embracing it and moving forward...

It's just beautiful, isn't it?

Unprecedented Stress Level

Heineken anyone?

A Walk in the Beach

Emo mode on. Again.

.....................................................and then there's loneliness to deal with. Crap.

A sign of weakness.
A sign of vulnerability.
A sign of whatever you'd want to call it.

I need to go to the beach for my walk.

I just need to sit down, and talk to God once again.

Yeah.

Anyone wants to tag along? Burps*

Bad

If you twist and turn away
If you tear yourself in two again
If I could, yes I would
If I could, I would
Let it go
Surrender
Dislocate
If I could throw this
Lifeless lifeline to the wind
Leave this heart of clay
See you walk, walk away
Into the night
And through the rain
Into the half-light
And through the flame

If I could through myself
Set your spirit free
I'd lead your heart away
See you break, break away
Into the light
And to the day

Oooh oooh, oooh oooh, oooh oooh oooh...

To let it go! And so fade away
To let it go!
And so fade away
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Wide awake
I'm not sleeping, oh no, no, no

If you should ask then maybe they'd
Tell you what I would say
True colors fly in blue and black
Blue silken sky and burning flag
Colors crash, collide in blood shot eyes

Oooh oooh, oooh oooh, oooh oooh oooh...

If I could, you know I would
If I could, I would
Let it go

This desparation
Dislocation
Separation
Condemnation
Revelation
In temptation
Isolation
Desolation

Let it go
And so fade away
To let it go, oh yeah
And so fade away
To let it go, oh No
And so fade away
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
Wide awake
I'm not sleeping oh no no

If ever I had the chance, play this song in my funeral, followed by "where the streets have no name"... Just like the way it was played in Live in Boston 2001...

Ok Kidding. But Damn.

Just watch the clips in between the two songs... You'll know what I mean...





It's like worshipping God... It's gotta be God working in the midst...

Goosebumps?? You bet...

In All Hunger-ness

Caution: Emo mode activated

Temptation has almost gotten the better of me. Or the worst, more like. If ever I would to send out a post secret card, it would have had a statement which goes something like this:

I wished that you would have touched my face, hugged, and kissed me...

But it was all over when I suddenly woke up.

*Damn Potong Steam Arrr**And No... Don't even get me started on the content of it*

Determined

To work some issues.
To make sure these issues gets resolved, for good, if possible.
To resolve these issues, before they go out of hand.
To work them out.

And then to move on...
ROAR!!

What The Bees....

Bees...

They just come as and when they feel like coming. (During Lunch Time)
They first give their name cards.
They impress themselves with their job titles (Project Manager, Talent Executive, Management Consultants etc)
They then ask me to settle their defects ASAP.

One requested for me to go up to their units to see through any defects. In Person.
One asked for my email address to contact me for further defects (if any).
The other asked for my handphone no to contact me if they need to make further complaints. (If any).
Another one asked if I was single. (Straight in my face).
And one more asked me out for lunch. (Double straight in my face).

What the bees man. So Amateur-ed. So Busted.

=__________='''

Disney-Marvel-lous

According to Times, Walt Disney Company has acquired Marvel Entertainment for a surprising $4billion just yesterday.

This means that Mickey Mouse, Hannah Montana, Snow White and Shrek will now be joined in by Wolverine, Spiderman, Hulk and Iron Man.

Gosh. This is strange.

Now.

Yes. I do shamelessly admit that my all time favourite cartoon character is Mickey Mouse. (Sorry Bugs Bunny, but the doc's not in today)

But, here's the thing.

I simply cannot phantom my dear Mickey being transformed into this:

Mouserine

Imagine having a video game featuring Goofy versus Spiderman killing each other:

Gasp. This is terrible.

Imagine what would happen if Wolverine could no longer smoke cigars, or drink beer. Likewise, Iron Man would no longer be able to drink martinis. Fruit Juice??

Or...The Silver Surfer will now ride a silver skateboard. Likewise, he will wear a backward baseball cap and baggy jeans with a flop of silver hair hanging over one eye. He must always be grinning, and he will make wisecracks.

Man... This should be interesting.

Oh yes. Wonder Woman now wouldn't even stand a chance against Hannah Montana now. She gay for goodness sake.

Complaining & Thanking

Never in my 25 years of life have I ever felt the need to be more critical and discerning in my thoughts, to the difference between someone complaining and thanking you, a sense of gratitude so to speak.

And how can I not be more critical? That when I start working, delving myself even more deeper into facilities management, rather than the project management field, I constantly find myself in a desperate need for strong discernment, especially dealing with humans. (Yes, it's humans I'm dealing with, you know... the kinds who are usually sweety in front of you, and almighty retarded behind you... you get the idea)

And what could only seemingly feel like an eternity for greater things which is yet to come, nevertheless, here I am, rambling my mind away to anyone who bothers to read this post.

I am not here to be the grandmaster of this trade, sharing my total of 9 months experience to the whole world. and neither am I here to snob off my unique position as a property management exec. Because for all I care, few women has even dared considered this field as a career path. Even men with balls dare not step into this field. Because when the men comes in with the balls, they go out without one. They become eunuchs. Damn.

So, I simply give thanks to God Almighty, because I don't have balls, and I don't see the need to have one. Because, lucky for me, I am a woman!

But being in this field, has somehow eaten into my common sense, rational thoughts and mindset- also known as a "madman" - or in this case "ball-ly mad" or "mad-ball" or "ball-istic" or "what-the-ball".

But God's Word is always the best to fall back on. Always "Worthy of 'em - BALL". *lame*

We ought always to thank God for you, brothers, and rightly so, because your faith is growing more and more, and the love every one of you has for each other is increasing. - 2 Thess 1:3

And ultimately, this job has thought me to be even more critical in my thanksgiving to God - Or at least, it is allowing me to be heading towards that direction - Or I'm still working it out.

Ok.Ok. Fine.

I am grateful for God almighty, and I better cling hard to His promises.

Because I really am grateful for Him.

Come on, don't even ask that question "Or else....." thing. Not working. *Smack*

Ramblings_Again.

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I'm angry. Really pissed off with the guards. The cleaners. The contractors. The freaking boss. I'm pissed off when expectations become intimidations. Having a supervisor who contradicts his words against the procedures required, only makes things worse. I'll badmouth for all I care, and I'll work smart by waiting until the old hag retires for good...

SO ROAAAARRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

FIND OUT YOURSELF for more *Roars*

What goes around comes around